Today, I will stop fighting and start surrendering. Instead of giving the battle my best effort, I will lay down my weapons and surrender. Lord, I don't know how to *be* when I am not pursuing something, battling something, busy about something. What is it about stillness of soul, mind, and body that I resist so much? What am I afraid of? Come, Lord Jesus. Flood the empty places. I become so aware of them when I am still. It terrifies me. I am empty.

Whom have I in heaven but you?
   And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
 My flesh and my heart may fail,
   but God is the strength of my heart
   and my portion forever.

Psalm 73:25-26